Sleep ??

OK, It's after 11 o'clock and my kids are asleep. you would think i would run to bed, but I'm not tired.
Partly from having such a long boring day and the fact that i like to run on no sleep. I don't know why i just function a lot better on 4-5 hours of sleep.
When i was younger, well when it was just Morgan (my twin) and i, we would sleep all day. I think it had a lot to do with the fact that no one was ever around and sleep was a way to pass the time.
Then as i got older i got less and less sleep and i hated it. Now if i sleep in past 8 o'clock, I'm pissed. i feel like my day is shot if I'm not up by 7 at least. I have just recently started to stay up way late. I think it's because I'm alone at night and i feel like if i go to sleep there might be noise i don't hear or something will happen. Most people who know me know what my worst fear is and that has a lot to do with it too.

When Brady was born and was so sick for like the first 8 months of his life i forgot what sleep felt like. Now i would give anything to have him snuggle up to me and sleep in my arms. For those close to me you know my bed was his. He was sick enough that he didn't sleep in a crib, car seat, bouncer, bassinet or anything until he was well over 5 months old. Every night was the same he would go to sleep in my arms and end up on my pillow with me. Yes a pillow. i admit i have let him sleep on a pillow since he was born, i also let Jason sleep on his stomach from birth too. He had bad reflux though. Not the kind where they dribble clear spit up, no the kind where when he was just a few weeks old he would puke so hard it would make him sit straight up and spew like the girl in The Exorcist. But, now thankfully they are both good sleepers and no one is sick. I still wish for just one more night with both of them as a baby sleeping in my arms. I did a lot of things with my kids that Dr.'s "advise" against. I guess just call it not being a total moron and the fact that i didn't sleep so i could watch them all night. I also credit a lot of advice given to me for Jason to Michelle. Thanks.
I'm going to go do crunches now!

My Intro:

Hey everyone,
I am new to blogging. I am not a fan of it but i have no life.
I guess i will start off by telling you a little bit about myself,
I am 24 and a mother of 2 boys (Jason,5 and Brady,soon to be 2).
I have been married for what seems like for freakin ever :) but really just over 5 years.
My husband drives long haul over the road mostly or local whenever it's available.
I have no life what so ever to speak of. i stay at home so i don't have to shell out nearly $1,000 a month in child care just to be away from my kids not making enough to even cover that and also i have a hard time trusting people with my kids!

I usually sit at home ALL day doing pretty much nothing and let my thoughts get completely out of control.
I love my attitude and the person i am. I love who my kids are and as far as them or myself i wouldn't change a thing. I make friends really easy and sometimes think i am too giving. I know, how can someone be TOO GIVING, but trust me I'm the first to get walked on. I cherish the moments in my life when everything is okay. I wait for the moments to have a little peace and usually get bored after a minute. I love having my kids around i am the kind of mom who gets on the floor and rolls around with them. Everything i do is for them, thus i have no life of my own. That's okay i know i will be empty nested soon enough.
So, in closing of my first post i hope this eases some boredom and i think it will be a good way to let out some of the clutter in my brain!